“I see everyone around me, talking to each other, laughing at the top of their voices, screaming madness around, but today I’m not feeling a thing but pain. I feel my heart is weighing me down today. Tears wouldn’t stop coming. It’s as if they have their unending supply. I feel weak. I can’t feel my legs; maybe I should sit down before I hurt myself. But then again, who cares if I get hurt! My family? Well, they aren’t here right now. My friends? Well, I don’t let them see through me, so they have no idea what I’m going through right now.
I think I’m gonna sit in the balcony. Maybe I will find solace
staring at the sky.
The sky seems as empty as me, without the twinkling stars, blinded
by its own pain and hollow. I see her face. She looks amazing, and with the
sun behind her, she looks like a Goddess. God, my eyes hurt.
If I stay away, maybe for the first few weeks I will cry, I will
be lonely, I will yell at people, I will hurt myself or maybe I will even start
drinking to find peace. But after that phase goes down, I will find someone
else to look up to, someone else to care about, someone else to love.
But I could never go down that road. Some force pulls me every
time I try, and it’s all back to square one. I’m a failure after all.
I notice people gathering down. They are yelling at me because I’m
sitting right on the edge of the balcony on the third floor. They don’t know
I’m in control; I’m not drunk stupid!
I see Neha among them, calling me. Yeah that’s her; I can see her!
I can’t figure out the words she keeps muttering from down there. Maybe I
should go down and have a closer listen to what she’s speaking. But I can’t
feel my legs just yet; I won’t be able to climb down the stairs.
She hears me. She’s smiling.
“I’m coming…” my legs are strong enough to move and push me away
from the balcony into the wind. I’m flying. The air feels cold.
A cold sweat trickled along the edge of my face. A dream? Well,
just another nightmare. I should go back to sleep. It’s not even dawn yet.
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